Current Fap: Carah Faye
Carah Faye is the lead vocals for the band “Shiny Toy Guns.” She is certainly the current fap. She’ gorgeous, has tattoos, sings like an awesome possum, and always has the most awesome hair. Definitely deserving.
So…
Yeah, the person who posted the youtube videos for Penn & Teller’s Bullshit! was banned on youtube. Thus, the videos in a previous post will no longer play. I’m tired. I want some hair dye. I want sleep. I want to get my check from work. I want to lay down. I want to not be awake. Argh. Need sleep.
Past week-ish
Not much is happening. A lot of little things making it iffy. Not good, but not horrible, just iffy. Really, no inspiration this week to write. In fact, right now I am running on no sleep. It sucks.
How do you know if you’ve made a bad choice? Truly.
So I did something a while ago. I knew I shouldn’t have, but I had thought about it for a few days, and came to me as the right decision. I’m think I’m regretting it now. The thing is, I don’t know if I’d regret it until after I act on regret. I’ll know after I’d act, but I might regret that regret. Hmm, I’m not sure.
It’s funny. I’m such an ultimately decisive and passionate person, but I’m also incredibly confused and indecisive young boy. Half the time I’m one, the rest of the time, I’m the other. Haha, not bipolar or a multi-personality thing, I’m just awkward at times. I am quite aware I’m not done growing up, and the sad thing is, I’m so close. There are just a few things to work on. I guess I’m only human, but still, it hurts nonetheless.
So, I know I’m going to act on a regret, but I’m not sure which one, and I know it won’t turn out the way I want it to. Yet, I must be an adult. I can’t go about life hoping my regrets will fix themselves. Rather, I should go through life with no regrets, and instead treat them as mistakes to learn from.
Strong Insomnia
I’ve gotten close to 8 hours of sleep the past 3 days. I don’t know what it is. I’ll be completely exhausted and fall to sleep quickly, only to awaken about an hour later and can’t go back to sleep after that. It happens to me every few weeks, but typically only lasts about a day or two. This is going on day 4.
Not having class tomorrow should help…I hope.
June 12th 2007
Last night, my english group came to my room at 1am and got me to come finish the project we had due at 8am this morning. Took until about 2:30. I came back to my dorm thinking I’d get a measly 4 and a half hours of sleep, but I saw guitar hero on the tv and though, “Fuck.” So, I played it until about 3am, then climbed into bed. I didn’t get to actual sleep until a little after 3:45. Hoping for 4 and a half hours of sleep was wishful thinking, I got about 3.
I woke up this morning so angsty about everything. I just presented my project with my group in english, and it went ok. My group is full of outgoing people, I made sure of that. I tend to be shy and quiet, and usually talk too quietly when around people I don’t know, so being in a group with the opposite makes up for that. Blia is a flakey girl, but ok I guess. Matt is a fat albino, but it seems most everyone likes him. And the other is Cheryl, she’s a short, really cute Hawaiian girl. We made some video clips last night, and mine sucked. I hate the sound of my voice when I’m being shy. I can’t help it, my voice is just deep usually. When I’m around friends and people I love, my voice is higher and more audible, but when I’m shy, it lowers and gets quieter, and I hate it.
Oh well, we made people laugh, and the class is full of idiots, so that means we’ll get an A. If you make stupid people laugh, the topic won’t matter, they’ll like it. If our presentation had been about kicking babies, we’d still have gotten an A with the laughs.
The rest of the day will not be as great. I have another class, and work. Plus, I have to do some math tests. Fuck.
Current Fap: Meg White
Ok, so some think I have a strange taste in woman, but I don’t see it. Maybe a taste in strange woman is a better way to put it.
This is Meg White, drummer of the White Stripes.
Believer Vs Christians Videos
I watched these videos and thought they were awesome. Now, to clarify, I’m not a christian, but, I like these videos for a reason. If you’ve read my blogs, you’ll know I’m not a big fan of that religion thing, but this makes me happy. It’s basically about people getting tired of the “old” way of doing it, and just modernizing the whole thing. I think it’s just more respectful I guess, you know?
Future-esque-ish-ness
The side of my finger is really fucking sore and hard from guitar hero last night. Good news is though, I finally got past carry me home on hard last night. It’s been my bane the past two weeks because it’s sat there mocking me, and I couldn’t do anything about it since I had so much homework. Well, last night, I finally got it. It was that fucking intro that’d fuck me over though, I’d get 6-11 percent and fail. After I got past about 16% of the song, I totally got the rest of it.
After that, I got from psychobilly up until free bird before failing again. I felt pretty good about that. But once I got to free bird, I just thought, “Fuck, time to fail.” And I did after 76%. Pwnt 
.
Another accomplishment last night was finally completing every math assignment for the entire semester in my math class last night. Now I just need to take the tests and I’m done. So I’ll be a busy fucking guy this week. Finals are next monday and tuesday, and a possible wednesday math final if I don’t finish it this week. Either way, I’ll be leaving fremont for good to move back to Red Bluff for a bit.
I don’t plan on staying in RB forever, but really, college is the last time I get to act young and kind of care-free, and I’d like friends for that. I have about 2 and a half years left until I get my BA, and I don’t mind spending that time at home with friends going to school. A semester at shasta this fall, then transfer to chico to finish up. Live at home with mom during the summer, then move into my own place around the beginning of August. I think it’s a pretty decent plan. Now to just find someone who will also be moving into their own place around that time…..
I Heart Penn & Teller
Ok, so I just got done watching this Penn & Teller special thing. I watched it on YouTube. I think it was one of the funnier things to watch. I just like them so damn much.
These are the three parts. I’d like to thank “Maulrat1967″ for uploading the videos to YouTube.
Part One
Part Two
Part Three
I’m convinced!
I’m so convinced after watching this video!
Anyways…..
Here’s a nice reply to it.
I feel better.
Again, I feel much better.
*Sigh*
Ok, so last night, I’m sitting there trying to sleep, but I have so much on my mind. I have a girlfriend now, Elie, and she’s great. Elie is nice, funny, gorgeous, cute, and she really likes me. I like Elie. I like Elie a lot. There is this girl, Megan, that has been messaging me the past month or two. Megan is cute, funny, outgoing, nerdy-ish (like me), about 110% sure she likes me, is a vegetarian, is very liberal, isn’t religious at all, and has graduated high school. Yeah.
So, my dilemma now is I’m sad. I have a great, great girl, but I have a chance with another great girl. Now, I’m not being greedy or stupid, there is a reason. Elie is a Christian. Megan is not. I like them both.
Doesn’t seem like it matters, but the big problem with my last relationship was religion. Deedra wanted me to, “Find god,” sorry, but not going to happen. Elie isn’t like that though, she’s less-so Christian. But still, I don’t want to be 6-7 years down teh line if we make it and have kids and break up over how to raise them because of religion! I can’t have that happen, I just can’t. I don’t want a made up being breaking up my relationship! Not going to let it happen again. But what am I supposed to do? Say this?:
“Ok, so Elie, I’m not sure if we’ll work because we might end up fighting in 5 years.”
Yeah, that’d work. The thing is, being very un-religious is a big thing for me. I sit around and wish that people would finally figure out it’s not real. But, it’s not my place to decide for them, so I keep my mouth shut about that most the time. I just won’t let it ruin a relationship.
I guess what I have been planning to do is wait until I’m in Red Bluff and can talk to Elie face to face and fully see what her stance on religion is. I know she’s religious though, she told me so. In our second conversation, she asked if I believed in god, and I said, “Nope.” She didn’t seem to care much, so that was a good sign, but still.
So really, the main thing I’m upset with, is that I get to sit around for the next two weeks, getting to know Elie better and better, and like her more and more, so that it’ll be harder to say it won’t work if that is the case…..how fun. Sitting here and not being able to do much just totally kills me. I can’t stand it. I just can’t! I’ll over think everything and make it seem like this horrible, massive thing.
Then again, who knows, maybe Elie isn’t as Christian as I thought….even though I know she is. I can hope.
Stupid Assholes
Why don’t people think about the feelings of others before opening their fucking mouths?
Take for example: A girl sleeps with a guy after they have been going out for several months and the guys says that he “loves her so much.” He then breaks up with her and tells all his friends he scores and they then call her a whore.
Why the fuck do people do these things? How do you think it makes that girl feel? She was sitting there thinking she’d lose her virginity to a guy who says he loved her, and then suddenly, everyone thinks of her as a whore. Even if it happens twice. The world is full of such horrible people. I’m sorry, but my definition of a whore is a person who gives it out to whoever asks for it.
“Excuse me, but can I have a romp in your fun hole?”
“Yeah, just hurry it up and leave a tip”
That’s what I consider a whore. Not this:
“Baby, I love you. If you loved me, you’d have sex with me.”
“I don’t know, we’ve only been going out for like 6 months”
“Come on baby, don’t you love me too?”
That is not being a whore. I can’t stand the majority of men in this country. All they think about is sex and treat woman like damn objects. I’m so tired of it! And the worst are the woman who call each other this. All you’re doing is making the stupid guys out there think that it’s ok for them to do it.
Guys, treat woman with the respect they deserve. Don’t sit there and try to convince them to have sex. Sex isn’t everything. When you’re 35 and sitting there trying to “get some” at a bar, while other people are sitting at home with their wives who love them, hopefully, you’ll look at yourself and feel like shit.
Be patient with girls. If a girl says, “No” or doesn’t seem sure of it, don’t push on! Say, “Ok” and leave it at that. Will it really kill you to wait a few months? Now, I’m not saying, “Celibacy is the way to go!” or, “Wait until marriage!” I’m not saying that at all. I am saying to wait until it’s ok for you both. Just because you’re a guy, you’re horny, and you’re always ready, does not mean the girl is. And if she is, she’s not a whore.
Moral of this story? Woman are equal to men, and are smarter in most cases. Treat them with the respect that they deserve. If you don’t, you’re a pile of shit that isn’t worth the air you breathe. Yeah, I’m subtle.
So stressed out right now.
I have an hour and a half between class right now. It’s basically my last bit of free time for the next week. I have a huge amount of math to complete. I’ll only need a full day to do it, but I don’t have any full days to do it right now. On top of that, I have to do all my math tests that go along with that, and I can only take them with a proctor present. I have to do it all by next friday basically.
With BIS, I have a final project due very soon that I’ve only barely started. He said not to use templates, but I’ll say I wasn’t there that day, since I don’t give a shit right now. It’s a 5 person project, but everyone in my group but one guy dropped out of school, and I kicked the remaining guy out since he is fucking stupid (I wrote a blog about him, look up my “I hate idiots…” blog, mentions him). So now I’m doing this big ass project alone. I don’t know a massive amount about Access, so it’s difficult. I have to make an entire database from scratch. Yeah.
Anyways. I’m going to take this last bit of sanity and free time I have and play WoW for an hour and 13 minutes. This month is going to suck up until the 23rd when I finally leave.
Uhm….you suck WordPress
For some reason, all my blogs are now out of order and have strange dates. The two below this one are off, they should be the other way around. Jeez, it looks nicer here, but Blogger was so much more simple.
Work is for the weak! …Mainly when you’re scooping ice cream for kids.
Giving my two week notice today for work…Wow, I suck at that kind of thing. My old job, they just got me so mad at everything, that I just walked in and dropped my uniform in a chair and said, “Yeah, I’m here to quit,” with a big smile.
For Baskin Robbins though, I don’t have a real beef with the place. My boss Frank is an ok guy. He’s over-bearing, a hypocrite, and cynical, but he isn’t that bad (his wife on the other hand…). I can’t just walk in and give a big ole’ “Fuck you” smile and quit, I want to do it nicely, ya know? I don’t even know what to say, or do. How’s this?
“Uh. Uhm. Hi Frank.”
“HI GARY! YOU GO CHANGE AND GET READY FOR WORK.”
“Uhm, actually I need to give my two week notice.”
“WHY YOU QUIT?”
“Uhm. I’m going to be moving in about two weeks.”
“*SIGH* OK GARY. YOU GO WORK”
How’s that look? I think that’s how I’ll do it. Fuck, nervous. I suck at confrontation.
So how’d work go Gary?
So, if you read my blog below this, it says I was going to quit. Well, that didn’t happen.
I didn’t chicken out though! My boss is in Reno until Thursday.
Yeah.
Lame.
I’ll do it when he gets back.
Soooo close!
Almost!
Anyways, Miss Hill88 is my little online crush. Sad? I guess so. But oh well. How can you not like a funny and cute aussie girl?
3v3
Ok, so my buddy Mike (Check out his blog here: http://phenomenaonbreak.wordpress.com/ ) and me used to play WoW all the time together. Well, he doesn’t really play anymore. Kinda sucks, but meh. Wish he still did. Always tried to get him into the end-game stuff I did, but usually he didn’t seem interested, or once he did, it was too late. Basically, I just tried to play with him when I could.
So, we would make alts (alternative characters) and play on those together. We made two blood elfs on the gorefiend server. I had a mage, and he had a priest. That was easily the most fun i had in a while. But, we got to level 15 and he doesn’t play it anymore. Yeah, sad times. But, I got over it. Before that, we made a another pair, his warlock, and my shaman. He started first, and I caught up. We leveled together, good fun was had. But he started to slow down and went back to his main (the character we met each other on) and I ended leveling past with my shaman, up to 29 while he was 24 still. I think he’s up to 27 now, but it’s kinda past it. I doubt he’ll play either of those characters again
Well, we made a 2v2 arena team. That was one of the more fun experiences. We sucked at first, but after that, we did better. Either way, it was fun as hell. Now, he doesn’t play much, so it’s just me on there. I joined a 3v3 arena team with a guildie after that. It’s really fun. I guess it sucks that I don’t get to play with one of my better friends anymore, but what can ya do?
Last night, my 3v3 arena team went 20-26 (wins-losses). Considering one of my team mates had zero honorable kills on his character (meaning never did player vs player before) and never been in an arena, we did decent. My teammate Xenohart (the other one) had always been a noob. Whenever I had partied with him, my dps (damage per second) would be so massively better than his, it was sad. Seriously, when he said he wanted a spot in the end-game Karazhan raids, we said it was full on hunters because we knew he sucked.
When I joined the 3v3 with him, I figured, “This guy sucks, but I’ll have fun at least.” Well, turns out he sucks at regular gameplay, but he’s rather decent at pvp (player vs player). In the matches with him, I always had the most damage done, but he tended to have the most kills. In the guild (Return With Honor is the name, about 200 people in it, and I’m one of the 7 who run it), I’m an officer, and he is a normal member. He continuously cursed and I didn’t do much since I usually don’t care. Well, he finally went over bored and said something racist, and I had to call him on it and give him a warning. Told him that cursing in front of me is fine (but not in guild chat or in front of other officers), but anything racist again, and I’ll kick him. I don’t like being the mean guy, but you have to set rules you know.
Anyways, breakdown.
-Wish Mike would play again
-Miss playing certain alts
-3v3 is fun as hell
-I’m needing a new person to play with a lot.
