It’s like a blog, but better looking than you.

“Btw kinda random, but you’re pretty cool…I kinda dig you, like in the good way.”

Alanna sent me that text about 15 minutes after we said good night after texting all day.

I sent back:

“Well shoot, I dig you in a good way too. And you’re beyond cool! “

Then she sent back:

“Awesome-o haha! Then I’m glad I said something than =D \m/ metal hands!….well, peace buster brown =))”

This girl is  like a 9.5 and I’m like a 6. I must really have a decent personality or I’m actually great looking and have low self-esteem…or something. Because I have no idea how I have a girl so far out of my league liking me!

That's Miss 9.5! Alanna!

Yeah...that's me. Mister 6.

See what I mean?

I’m so frikking happy! Holy shit! I went from being so tired I could pass out to feeling so giddy I couldn’t stop laughing! I love this!

But since my life is going so great now…I know something horrible will happen to me within the next few weeks. I’ll lose my job, or get pulled over when I have no license, or something. Maybe it’ll be worse than usual and I’ll get in a horrible car accident. It never fails, when my life gets to a point where I have no real complaints and I’m truly happy, something bad happens that ruins it all. Or often times, everything that was good suddenly takes a horribly sharp turn for the worse. Never…never fails. I’m worried of what might happen, but I can’t let that take away this happiness I’m feeling now!

-Gary

Today.

Today…was a good day.

I got to hang out with Alanna…hell yes.

We started hanging out around 2:30pm-ish, then I dropped her off at home around 2:30am. Today was a great day.

Like, at first, I was kinda iffy, since I wasn’t sure if she actually wanted to hang out, so I was being my pessimistic self, and thinking stuff like:

“She probably doesn’t really want to hang out, so meh, at least I’ll be outside the house though.”

But then when I said I’d pick her up around 4pm, she sent me a text at 2pm saying she couldn’t wait, and just wanted to hang out then. I suddenly got a nice boost in mood. I was almost dancing to my car and singing. Ok, fine. I was singing and dancing to my truck.

I go pick her up down the street from my house, and she looks….amazing. Like so beautiful. Her hair is done so cute, and she has really nice clothes on. Her make-up was a minimum (just mascara), and that how I love it. Less make-up, the better. She says she’s sorry for looking haggard, and I’m thinking to myself that she looks absolutely gorgeous, but keep it to myself, since I don’t want to make it too incredibly obvious that I think she’s perfect. She gets in my truck, and we jump right into conversation, and it’s great.

We’re about to drive past my house, and she’s like, “So where do you live?” I point to my house, and say, “The one behind the jungle,” since I have palm trees, palm bushes, and lots of vine plants (morning glories and such) outside. She thinks it’s completely awesome, and we continue to Starbucks.

We get there, and just sit in the chairs and talk for like an hour, then I tell her that my buddy Derek works at Pizza Hut across the street, so we go over to say, “Hi.” In all truth, it was to show Derek just how amazingly beautiful she was, and be happy. Right after that, we come back to Starbucks again, and see Cody Torgesrude (spelled that incorrectly totally), and chat with him for like an hour and half, then he leaves for work, and sit and talk longer. Then we head to Shari’s.

We sat at Shari’s for like 2 hours, and drink water etc. Her friend Vince had driven past us on the way there, and stopped in, and hung out with us for like 20 minutes. She talks about her bad break-up with her boyfriend, and how he’s a cheating slut with some slut. I get happy when she talks about it, but also feel really sorry, since I’ve dealt with the same thing. We talk longer, then we decide to go to Maple Gardens for eats.

We get the food, and she says we should go eat at a park alone. So we head to Dog Island park, and we eat at some benches in the back, until bees attack us, so we keep switching benches while eating for an hour, until we just go back and sit in my truck. We sit in my truck alone in the park for a few hours, until like 10pm-ish talking and looking up movie stuff on her phone (Can’t Hardly Wait and stuff). Then I tell her about Narnia. Narnia is this little tunnel in a park near-by that has a dead end at the end that is surrounded by trees with light gravel. We go there, and sit and talk for a half hour or so, until she stacks up like 5 leaves and I light them on fire….and that’s when it started.

We started gathering leaves, branches, and such, and made a nice fire. It was fun, and then we sat and watched the fire in relative silence (since we’re both really tired, but also both enjoy sitting in silence and enjoying company) for about an hour. We stay there from like 10:30 until around 1:45am. She tells me how none of her friends ever want to sit around outside and do stuff like that, and says she loves it. We come back to my truck, and start to drive her home.

On the way there, we talk a little, and mainly just enjoy sitting again. As we get into Anderson, she tells me all about how her friends did stuff on that road (painting and such). We finally get to her house, and after I park, she starts to get out, but then turns and says:

“I really want to give you a hug now.”

So she leans over and gives me the most amazing hug I’ve gotten in a long time. Then she smiles and says she had an amazing night, and had a really great time. We say good night, and she smiles the most beautiful smile, and goes inside.

I was so happy on the way home that the 20 minute drive home feels like 2 minutes, and I’m belting songs like, “My Name is Jonus,” “Scar Tissue,” and like 4 MSI songs at the top of my lungs. I call Kevin after I finish my cigar, and tell him how amazing Alanna is, and then end up just heading to his apartment. We talk for like an hour and a half about the Skivers (our band), and I constantly interrupt him with stuff about Alanna.

After that, I check my phone, and see Alanna left me a text saying:

“Thank you so much for hanging with me today! I had such a cool time! It was so radical! Good night =)”

I smile a huge smile, and send back saying that I had a great time and want to do it again sometime very soon.

Then I got my house, and turn on K-os, and go on myspace. I see she already has a bulletin up with the title: “Alanna Martinez” and the body was: “had such a dandy day!”

I became giddy at that point, and came to write this blog. I haven’t felt this happy in a long, long time. Everything is great right now!

•I have a place
•I have 2 great friends, who are awesome (Kevin and Derek)
•I have time and motivation to write
•I am actually working on projects with people (my plays, songs, movies, etc)
•I’m in a fucking band called, The Skivers!
•And finally, I’m meeting my dream girl. Literally.

When Lena and I first broke-up, I made myself feel better by making a list of what my perfect girl would be, and that was before I met Alanna. Here’s a rough memory of the list (I’m too into skiving to go out to my truck to grab the actual list, but this is what I remember):

• 18 or over 
• Living away from home in Red Bluff or near
• Atheist or Agnostic ***
• Liberal ***
• Gorgeous ************
• Funny ***
• No baggage (crazy or kids) ***
• Loves Japan ***
• Smart ***
• Good taste in music ***
• Artsy ***
• Responsible ***
• Mature ***
• Single ***
• Vegan, Vegetarian, or wants to be ***

The ones with the “***” next to it are things Alanna matches to. She’ll be 18 in 3 months-ish, so that part is fine. She lives in Anderson with her mom still, but will move once 18, so that’s fine too. Other than that, she hits the rest of the list perfectly. I mean….I made this list before I even knew who she would too! I’ve been so excited just being around her all day! AHHHHHHHHH! YES!

Ok, well, I’m done for now with this, but wow. Wow, wow, wow. I want to marry this girl. Thing is, I wanted to take it slower with the next relationship I had, and I’m doing good so far. Since after Deedra, every girl I’ve gone on a date with, I kissed on the first date, and this time, I did not do that. I’m doing good! That hug Alanna gave me, it was amazing, and felt so good. I just like her so much. I’m about 85% sure she feels the same way too, but sometimes, it’s hard to tell with people. She was saying that when she’s with someone who she’s bored with (like if she’s not having fun with, or just doesn’t like), than she’d just text her friends to call and come pick her up or something, and since she said it randomly to me, I know that was her saying, “I like being around you.” Heck yessir.

Ok, now I am done. AHHHH! This is great.

Peace,

-Gary

In the past few months, a lot as been going on.

•I moved back to Red Bluff

•I got together with a girl

•I got my old job back

•Moved in with mom

•Moved out of mom’s when she moved, then I moved into my truck.

•Moved in with my step-dad for 3 weeks

•Got a place of my own

•Figured out the girl I was with was psycho, so left her

•Started hanging out with Kevin and Derek every night

•Started a band with Kevin and Derek

That brings me to now. That’s around 3-4 months wrapped up. I think I’ll be writing in this more often, but I know that whenever I say that, I lie to myself.

Don’t expect a miracle, that way it’s more miraculous when it happens.

-Gary