Job Hunting
I haven’t been on much since the last summer. Just random blogs here and there. It’s because I’ve been so caught up in other things.
In the summer, I had just school and a simple part time job. I had no big bills aside from my 50$ phone bill each month.
I didn’t have difficult classes, and I didn’t have a major social life.
Just enough of everything to be content.
Then after the summer, I moved back to my hometown, and things got messy. There was the apartment thing, then the job search thing, then the losing of the said apartment the same week I got the job, then the quitting of the job to move to Redding, then the search a new job while doing class work on subjects that are more difficult, and throw on losing two girlfriends in that time….and that’s why I haven’t been content enough to write much.
Oh, I’ve written a lot, but not much in this type of blog context. It’s all been journals, stories, screenplays, poetry, songs, etc.
Anyways, I hope I’ll continue to write here. I still check on comments and comment back to everything, but I just don’t have the time I used to have, which sucks, since I love blogging.
-Gary
Feel better.
I was feeling all depressed earlier because I was realizing how alone I felt.
Ok, it all started with me moving up to Redding. I did it to get a better job while in college. I knew that if I stayed in my hometown, I couldn’t make enough to save money for a place of my own, or enough to get my license back (~800$). So, I moved in with my dad. I wanted to be able to support my girl when she came back to this area in June, and I could only do so with money. Well, when I did this, I left ALL my friends behind in Red Bluff. I know nobody but my dad and cousin here in Redding. I’m not friends with my cousin really, we just don’t dislike each other, she’s very “preppy and jesus-y.”
After feeling like that, my friend Kevin calls me up from Red Bluff and is like, ”Heeey Gary (that’s how he talks), I got a party I’m going to later, you should totally come. I’ve got booze and a gay midget.”
First of all, he does have a gay midget. I’ve haven’t met him yet, but I’ve seen pics. Yea, he’s flaming, it’s so awesome.Ok, I have no gas money at all, because I need 55$ for my phone bill next month, plus gas money to school and work (eventually) and back. I have 95$~ in my account. Redding is a 30 minute drive from Red Bluff. I drive a truck. You do the math.
I get all depressed again, but during the conversation with him (lasting about 10 minutes), my friend Tanya texts me asking what’s up and such. After the call with Kevin, I call my girlfriend back and talk to her for like ~3 hours. After that, I remember the text and reply. About 20-30 minutes later, Tanya calls (by the way, Tanya is my girlfriend Elie’s sister and one of my best friends). She tells me about some stuff that happened and we talk about it. Then after that, we talk for like an hour and a half. It was awesome talking to a friend on the phone for longer than 10 minutes again.
I haven’t been able to do that in years. Usually, we’d just talk about where we’d meet, then go there and hang. But we got to talk for a while about just different shit. It was cool. When Elie and I get married, I’ll be really happy to have such a cool friend as a sister-in-law. Plus, I think her boyfriend is a really cool guy too. Quiet like me, but can be really fun, most definitely one of the nicest people I have ever met too.
And that is my night. Now I’m going to play a bit of WoW or Oblivion. Haven’t decided yet.
Strong Insomnia
I’ve gotten close to 8 hours of sleep the past 3 days. I don’t know what it is. I’ll be completely exhausted and fall to sleep quickly, only to awaken about an hour later and can’t go back to sleep after that. It happens to me every few weeks, but typically only lasts about a day or two. This is going on day 4.
Not having class tomorrow should help…I hope.
June 12th 2007
Last night, my english group came to my room at 1am and got me to come finish the project we had due at 8am this morning. Took until about 2:30. I came back to my dorm thinking I’d get a measly 4 and a half hours of sleep, but I saw guitar hero on the tv and though, “Fuck.” So, I played it until about 3am, then climbed into bed. I didn’t get to actual sleep until a little after 3:45. Hoping for 4 and a half hours of sleep was wishful thinking, I got about 3.
I woke up this morning so angsty about everything. I just presented my project with my group in english, and it went ok. My group is full of outgoing people, I made sure of that. I tend to be shy and quiet, and usually talk too quietly when around people I don’t know, so being in a group with the opposite makes up for that. Blia is a flakey girl, but ok I guess. Matt is a fat albino, but it seems most everyone likes him. And the other is Cheryl, she’s a short, really cute Hawaiian girl. We made some video clips last night, and mine sucked. I hate the sound of my voice when I’m being shy. I can’t help it, my voice is just deep usually. When I’m around friends and people I love, my voice is higher and more audible, but when I’m shy, it lowers and gets quieter, and I hate it.
Oh well, we made people laugh, and the class is full of idiots, so that means we’ll get an A. If you make stupid people laugh, the topic won’t matter, they’ll like it. If our presentation had been about kicking babies, we’d still have gotten an A with the laughs.
The rest of the day will not be as great. I have another class, and work. Plus, I have to do some math tests. Fuck.
Future-esque-ish-ness
The side of my finger is really fucking sore and hard from guitar hero last night. Good news is though, I finally got past carry me home on hard last night. It’s been my bane the past two weeks because it’s sat there mocking me, and I couldn’t do anything about it since I had so much homework. Well, last night, I finally got it. It was that fucking intro that’d fuck me over though, I’d get 6-11 percent and fail. After I got past about 16% of the song, I totally got the rest of it.
After that, I got from psychobilly up until free bird before failing again. I felt pretty good about that. But once I got to free bird, I just thought, “Fuck, time to fail.” And I did after 76%. Pwnt 
.
Another accomplishment last night was finally completing every math assignment for the entire semester in my math class last night. Now I just need to take the tests and I’m done. So I’ll be a busy fucking guy this week. Finals are next monday and tuesday, and a possible wednesday math final if I don’t finish it this week. Either way, I’ll be leaving fremont for good to move back to Red Bluff for a bit.
I don’t plan on staying in RB forever, but really, college is the last time I get to act young and kind of care-free, and I’d like friends for that. I have about 2 and a half years left until I get my BA, and I don’t mind spending that time at home with friends going to school. A semester at shasta this fall, then transfer to chico to finish up. Live at home with mom during the summer, then move into my own place around the beginning of August. I think it’s a pretty decent plan. Now to just find someone who will also be moving into their own place around that time…..
So stressed out right now.
I have an hour and a half between class right now. It’s basically my last bit of free time for the next week. I have a huge amount of math to complete. I’ll only need a full day to do it, but I don’t have any full days to do it right now. On top of that, I have to do all my math tests that go along with that, and I can only take them with a proctor present. I have to do it all by next friday basically.
With BIS, I have a final project due very soon that I’ve only barely started. He said not to use templates, but I’ll say I wasn’t there that day, since I don’t give a shit right now. It’s a 5 person project, but everyone in my group but one guy dropped out of school, and I kicked the remaining guy out since he is fucking stupid (I wrote a blog about him, look up my “I hate idiots…” blog, mentions him). So now I’m doing this big ass project alone. I don’t know a massive amount about Access, so it’s difficult. I have to make an entire database from scratch. Yeah.
Anyways. I’m going to take this last bit of sanity and free time I have and play WoW for an hour and 13 minutes. This month is going to suck up until the 23rd when I finally leave.
Sooo, what to do?
I’m torn. I have really, nothing much to do now. I’m done with school for the week, and don’t really have homework. I have some english thing, but it’s a 15 minute assignment I’ll do later. I kinda feel like just going to sleep, but I have work later today. Good thing is, I don’t have work this weekend, so I get to sit around and sleep in, and take naps, and write, and just be lazy and do what I want to do.
Feel good about that I guess, but not really. Boredom makes me sit and think, and thinking makes me depressed usually…
Maybe I’ll work on the access project I have due in a month. It’s kinda big, so might as well.
I could also start to layout some of the Harbinger Issue 2. I haven’t done a single thing to it for this issue yet. For the layout I mean. All I have to do really is just throw the stories in. Last month, I had to layout and make sure that the whole thing worked right, don’t have to do that this time thankfully.
I hate idiots….
Oh jeez, I am hurting right now from holding in laughing. This guy next to me is such a dipshit. I wonder how some of these idiots get in to fucking college. Ok, the in class work is so basic. All you do is copy what the Professor is doing on the screen. He goes slowly for the most part. I mean, I’m following along while writing this blog. Come ON. This guy is slamming his mouse down and acting like a little kid because the Professor won’t stop a full course to help just him. It’s a big class.
It’s required to have a flashdrive in this class. REQUIRED. This was said the first week. This same guy has the same problem each and every week. He attempts to get the in class work off the common drive each week. I’ve personally explained to him that our class work continues each week from the assignment the week before, and getting the original work each week is pointless. It’d be like doing all the past work each week all over. You HAVE to save it each week to your flashdrive. This guy is so dumb. He basically whines and has tantrums about it.
I want to slap him. I want to slap him HARD. I was in a group with some idiots in this course earlier in the semester, and got out of it fast so that I could get a good grade doing it alone. That same idiot from before just asked me if he could join my group.
….Ok, We have three parts to the project, two have already been finished and turned in by the entire class. He basically wants credit for the work I did. I am usually really nice, but fuck that. If this guy had just started late and was willing to work, I’d help the guy out, but fuck him. He’s a free-loading, lazy, idiot. I said (without even taking my eyes off my computer screen),
“Yeah….that’s not going to happen.”
I’ve never been that much of an ass to a stranger until now lol.
The idiot will fail. Do I care? Nope. He deserves to. If you don’t do your work—not even that, if you don’t even TRY to do your work, you deserve to fail. Think about 5 years from now, when this guy is working. Oh jeez, even if he worked at Burger King, he’d somehow manage to cause an explosion.
Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
My roommate can be a douchebag. He’s racist, egocentric, elitist, overly religious (sometimes), sexist, bigot, and homophobic.
Thing is though, he’s probably one of the better roommates here I could have really. He’s clean, he’s respectful of my space and things, it’s fun to talk to him when he’s not acting like the Derek I hate. Like, we have millions of inside jokes. Around 80% of what we talk about are inside jokes.
“Bean cup”
“Likin’ it like Lycanthrope.”
“Toooo late”
“Potatooo”
“Prom Night Dumpster Baby”
“Bilson Beating”
“En da da da da”
All classics. I just wish he wasn’t such a dick the other part of the time. I’d actually be able to be a really good friend with him. But, people have personality flaws. I have them. Most of the time, I’m a totally nice guy, but I can be a total dick too. I’m a hypocrite at times, I tend to see my views as better than others just because I can argue them better, and I can be overly sensitive.
So I’m not just bashing on Derek, because really, he’s a great guy and an all around decent roommate. In all actuality, he’s one of the best roommates at this dorm I bet. It’s just, you don’t really know what kind of flaws a person has until you live with them. But, you also see the good parts of people. Just when you see someone when they are in their own environment, you see the good and the bad. I personally deal with the bad in my roommate by writing about it. If he’s being a dick, I tend to do the, “Mmhmm” and sit at my desk. I’m not going to get in his face about it, what good would that do? I’m just trying to learn to deal with personality flaws in people while figuring out my own.
