Yeah, who cares about that last blog I did!
So, June 1st is a great day.
Great great day!
I’m going out with Elie now.
So great.
Just so great!
Oh jeez, great.
She was the one girl I wanted to be with. Even before I met Deedra, I wanted to be with her.
Actually, if she had been single, I would have never gone out with Deedra. But now I get to be with Elie, it’s like a dream come true!
Oh man-o-man! I have goosebumps. Actual goosebumps!
Update on "Dangst"
So, she signed off IM, and was about to leave the house, when her dad walked in and asked where she was going. Caught. Damn. So she signs back on and says, “I got caught, won’t be able to try again either.”
At least we tried.
It sucks though, she’s such a cute cute girl, and I’ve had the crushies (you heard me Mike) on her for ages. When we used to hang out, she had a boyfriend, and she would always talk to me about him and whether or not she should break up with him or not over things. Well, apparently, that whole time, she was really just seeing if I would go out with her if she left him. Dang. I’m horrible at picking up hints from girls. So so so horrible. I wish I had picked up on that. I wish so much.
Truthfully, I think that she is the best looking girl I’ve ever had a chance with (well, that I liked back). Best thing is, she’s a really cool girl who is totally fun to hang out with.
I hope that she comes back to town again after I move back, I really want to hang out with her again.
Jeez, it’s been ages since I’ve flirted with a girl and been flirted with back, forgot how great it feels. I guess when you’re in a relationship for as long as I was, you get comfortable.
I’m glad that I know I at least have a chance with her though lol. It is pretty disappointing that we didn’t get to hang out though. Even if we just sat around and talked, I would have been totally happy with it. I’m not the kind of guy who would date a girl just for the physical parts, not at all. Truthfully, I would have trouble doing a one-night stand, just not that type of guy I guess. But since I’ve known Elie for so long, I was really looking forward to having a fun make-out time with her I guess lol.
I mean, I’ve always had girls be forward with me in the past (I mean really forward with some), but never really accepted it. But certain girls, I can’t help it, you know? Still, I’ve only ever kissed one girl in my life.
Anyways, there’s my night. Got my hopes up for a fun time with an old friend I’ve missed, and then got them shot right back down lol. I’m done for now than. Can’t think of anyone else to talk to or hang out with. I guess I’m done for the weekend socially. It’s ok though, just 3 more weeks until I’m back for good.
-Gary
Dangst
So, girl I liked last year, Elie, I find her on myspace and start talking to her. She moved to santa cruz apparently, so that sucks. But, same weekend I’m in Red Bluff, so is she. We are both on myspace IM pretty much trying to get eachother to sneak out and hang out (mind you, it’s 2:30am).
“yeah i know
So, do you have a boyfriend back in SC?
yeah but he is being an ass hole i dont like him much
That sucks
yeah i dont know what his problem is hes fucked up
Than dump him lol, usually a good idea with that
yeah i guess so but he wont let me
he’ll just say no and act like nothing is wrong or he’ll make me feel like shit
that’s so fucked up elie
yeah i know need some one thats actually nice
I’m sorry Really wish I could help you
You deserve a nice guy
well ……………………………………. u could help”
Yeah, I’m liking how this conversation is progressing. I’ll still understand if she can’t come hang out, but dang it’ll suck.
Confuggled.
It’s weird. Was in a serious relationship for almost two years, before it ended about 3 weeks ago. It still feels strange you know? Little things. Like, I have a crush on another girl now and everything, and I don’t know, haven’t felt that in a while.
But it’s strange. I still love my ex, in fact, she left me, so I still had feelings for her. So that’s what makes it weird. Loving one person only for a while, and then, BAM, that can’t happen anymore.
This girl Brianna, I’ve liked her for about, oh jeez, 3 years now? Since I was a sophomore in high school I think, so almost 4 years I guess. Two years ago, before I met my ex, I was too shy and self-concious to ever ask her out, or for her number or anything. Now that I’m single, it feels weird to know that I can. I’ve never been experienced with the whole dating thing. With my ex, it all just fell together. She liked me, I liked her, it was obvious and simple. With Brianna, it feels different.
Now it just feels like I have to really try. I don’t know what I’m supposed to try at though. I’ve only dated my ex, and another girl for about two weeks before that. I barely know what to do. I’ve called her once now, and I think I did ok, but I have no clue. I talk to her on myspace, but how is a person supposed to know how one is feeling through text? Easy with some people, difficult with others.
As far as I know, she adores me, and is just shy about it. Or, she really hates me. The latter is less likely since she’ll talk to me too, but still, I just don’t have a clue.
Argh! I hate being clueless. I almost just want to call her and say, “Wanna go on a date?” But I can’t! It’s so different for me right now.
She lives in my old town, and I live in a new town. I’m moving back in June, but still. I can’t exactly say, “Hey, want to see a movie? I’ll just have to drive 400 miles north and meet you there.” Argh. I don’t want to start anything until I move back, but I don’t don’t want to!
Dammit!
So confuggled…..
This isn’t even the worst part. She has a new boyfriend now. Bam. That’s what I get for being here and not there to ask her out. But the thing is, it’s still really new, so I’m not really feeling any reason to back off with it. I’m not going to straight ask her out while she’s dating another guy, but I will tell her how I feel. But damn, I feel like a dick for that.
I don’t know. Even though I really like her, a lot, I guess I should just give it up. I mean, she has a boyfriend, though it might not be serious, and as far as I know, she might even prefer me. Or, she never liked me as anything more than a friend. Who knows. Not me. She does, but I don’t.
Basically, I think I’m going to call her again and hope I get her by herself, and not with others. Might get a better feeling of my chances. I’m just so damn awkward on the phone….
Why can’t this be like middle school where I could send her a note that says, “I like you, if you like me, circle ‘yes.’” Damn. I would love that.
Argh…
Worked
Holy shit, feel so much better now. Called Brianna, and it went well! 
She was always really quiet, so I had no clue how well a phone call would go, but it went fine. If anything, I didn’t talk enough. I suck at phone calls though, but still.
Jeez, glad that worked out. She seemed happy I called too, so that was a plus
I feel a lot better about this whole thing now. I liked her, but wasn’t 100% sure if I actually liked her. Doesn’t make sense does it?
Well, I had always been a friend of hers. We had some of the same friends, and we’d hung out a few times, but always with our mutual friends, so we didn’t talk much together. Because of that, I knew I liked her since she was always so cute, nice, and we had a lot in common, but I never knew if I truly liked her personality. I knew that if I talked to her one on one a few times, I’d get it.
That’s one down, a few more to go before I decide on asking her out or not. I can’t ask her out until I move back in June anyways, so I have time.
Wow….
I’m feeling so nervous right now. Been egging myself on to call Brianna all week. I knew I’d be alone all weekend, so I was going to do it saturday. Saturday is here and I’m feeling nervous as hell. I just wish I had the guts to just call.
I sat there for about 20 minutes staring at my cell in bed….then I fell asleep. I woke up an hour later and now I really need to call. If I don’t I’m going to hate myself.
Dammit, this part is always so damn hard…..
